So we've decided to make a go of it--again. I am excited about it. Max will be here tomorrow night. Yay! On the downside, we were talking about how this could work when it occurred to me that perhaps he was not considering my up-and-coming trip to the sandbox that will most likely find me out of the country for a year or more. As I mentioned it, I could tell that he had not considered that at all. This is not at all a good thing. Here is my problem (and perhaps his): I do not want to undergo attachment again only to find myself alone in a foreign country to go through withdrawals. That is not fair to either party. So what now? Do we carry on as planned and see where we are when it is time for me to leave? I am confused and a bit vulnerable.
I undertook a project last night to decorate my plain wall in my bedroom. I can't stand white walls. I must have color! So, I saw something in a Pottery Barn catalogue that gave me inspiration. There were several black and white photographs with silver frames of different sizes hung on a wall--a photo wall, if you will. So I decided to replicate that with my handy-dandy silver spraypaint and photo scanner. I chose sepia instead of black and white because of my chocolate colored bedspread. I know!! This is exciting!! Anyhow, I think it turned out pretty well. In the center of all the photos is one of a tree. It was taken on one of my 'sentimental journeys' when I lived in South Kansas City.
Chicken enchilada night turned out well. Jac made the best enchiladas EVER! haha. Afterwards we went over to hang out with my friends and play some drinking games (hello four years ago). We had a good time and got home very late. Being in their company again made me quite introspective--Had I really been so immature/insecure back then? If so, then I've come a long way from the girl I was four years ago. I spent a lot of mental energy ( back then) feeling judged, awkward, insecure. Now is it that I don't care or that I've changed (or both)? Also, I think this needs mentioning: Johnny proudly displayed the weevils in his flour. Can we have a round of applause for the bachelors in our audience?
On a side note, I think I am going to go over my texting limit on my phone! Lately it has been very popular to text me--extravagantly!
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Trust me on this, it is VERY hard to leave a significant other while you go to the Sandbox. I see tons of people (men and women) go crazy because they miss their significant others. Or worse, their sig others dumped them or cheated on them. Just food for thought.
And your ability to not care is one of the things that makes you so attractive.
1.) I feel the same way, mostly. I completely agree about the confused and vulnerable bit as well. 2.) You are very correct about my not thinking about the box-- I was just hoping to make the KC-TX connection work... but I'm glad we're giving it a chance anyhow. 3.) I had a terrific time with you both chances I had to see you again. The worst part was driving away, listening to your personal radio station fade away. 4.) I was a bachelor until just recently too, but I never had weevels in my flour! Well, technically, I didn't have any flour either. OR heated seats. Hope those pictures of us in front of those big 'cocks turned out. Wheeeeee! ;)
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